Well, today I went to a meeting with a guy to do lighting for some plays that they direct and ended up staying there for 2.5 hours... It was crazy... Good thing is, I get to pick when I wanna go in and for how long.. I had mad fun though.. The people were insane. But I'm mad excited cuz I just got an internship for doing lighting and helping out with sets.. yey!!!!



well that was all my good news... everything else is probably bad so i'm not gonna go into that...



btw... HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH!
   this internship thing was the only good thing that happened all day... hah yey



dun.

sh0rt!3

Well if you were the true best friend that you have claimed to be, you would have never pulled this shit you did. First you lie, I try to save you all the time. I help you out even when I know you're wrong. Your friends piss you off or upset you and you cry in school, I'm there for you. I've never lied about you or for you, I was never the type to lie... especailly about a "best friend".

IF I would have done the shit that has just went on, there is no way in hell I would have let your ass get in trouble... You know that just as well as I do, I would have given my self up.. But I DID NOTHING. You told me you knew that... Remember when you called me, and asked me how long I was in trouble for, and what happened.... Remember in that same conversation when you said "I know you didn't do anything, but my mom won't listen to me about it.. I tried to tell them". Yeah, then when I went to call your mom and be the better person and try to save myself, and tell them that YOU ADMITTED I DID NOTHING, you hung up on me... You lied to my father. You lied to me. You're lying to yourself and your parents. You told me you knew I did nothing... Why are you lying? Why did you tell my father that it was all me and that you were clean from it? Why lie?

I'm not sure if I understand this the way I should. But I know that I did nothing, and I know you know that too. You told me you did. There's no need for lying, if you can call me up and tell me that you know that I was clean from it, and that I didn't do anything and YOU KNEW IT... Why tell your mom and my father different? Is this your new thing? To hate on the girl that has been there for you no matter what?

I know you're probably thinking "I'll just turn this around and say I never called". But if that was the case, would I have lied to my parents and picked up the phone to call you and your mother? No, because I wouldn't have lied to 4 people in one conversation. I would not have made up some bull shit like that to get myself out of trouble because I was hardly in trouble for that any way. This whole paragraph just proves that I will not lie to get myself out of trouble or lie ABOUT A BEST FRIEND.

I don't know why you are doing this. I don't understand it at all. You tell me how you always want to be there for me and would do anything for me after all the things I've done for you. Well, it would help if you didn't lie and you just told the truth. This proves that our friendship wasn't really what you said it was and that you didn't care about me, because if you did, you could have "done anything for me" by just telling them you knew I didn't do anything.

If you really wanted to fix things with me, you'd tell the truth. You'd tell your mother and everyone else that you know I didn't do anything like you said to me. You'd call up my parents and apologize for hanging up and apologize for telling everyone it was all me and no one else. You'd call up ME and apologize to me for all this shit you just pulled. If you can pick up the phone that one day and tell me you knew it wasn't me, then you can do it again, to every one this time.

I'm trying to fix things, I'm trying to make this better. But you cannot go living your life knowing that this is a lie can you? Honestly now, could you really go on living knowing you just lied to your "best friend" and about your best friend? You lied to me, my parents, your parents, your self. I never believed anyone when they told me you were fake. But this just proves that you are. I've never thought of you to do this... Never. Especailly after all the things I did for you. Does that mean that EVERYTHING I have helped you out with in the past and have done for you means NOTHING?

So pretty much all you have to do is admit the truth to every one, and yourself. I'm tired of being blamed when you had the nerve to call me and apologize and say you knew it wasn't me. So if you really want to get me back and make everything normal between us. You'll tell your parents the truth, and you'll call up mine and do the same. ((wow this really sounds like we were dating, but that's besides the point)) Do the right thing Randi, I can't help you here. It's time for you to do this on your own and make the decision on what is right or not.


I'm tried of being the only one who is trying to make things better. Please come along for the ride and help.


Truthfully yours,
$h0rT!3


Trippin' or sober, through thick and thin. $h0rT!3 and |-!3 friends till the end..
^ ¿remember this? ^






To Randi's cousin who is delievering the message.
- If you could, just read this off to hear, it will probably make it easier for the both of you.. Thank you very much and I'm sorry you're the messanger. But don't worry, it's bad to kill the messanger, you're only the person who delievers.

FUCkK IT ALL..





i think that got my point across...

You made my day then a living hell, now you're working on the rest. I wish you the best... The best time in hell.


Spoken from the "messanger".. I bet everyone can figure out who I'm talking about though.


Not to be named: listen  to me andrea....she didnt want you to get into trouble..it just happened...but shes not able to talk to you cuz she cant do ne thing and shes grounded until february break...so i dont know when you can talk..and she sed that she wishs you the best....

"Loosing a best friend is the worst feeling in the world" - Not to be named



Well, I wish you the best like I always have, but this time it's not the same. It's not the same old forgive and forget story. I'm sorry for that, I'm sorry for all of this. Thanks for showing me the real you after all was said and done. I don't believe what you are saying, or who you are having say it for you. It is bull that you have the nerve to pick up the phone and call me and tell me one thing, but tell my father another. You hang up on me, you avoid my calls, you blocked me. This isn't some childish game and I'm not going to play around. You're messing with the wrong person and you know that just as well as I do. I refuse to sit here and take this. So you are punished till February break, but even  that will not fix what you did to me. You betrayed my trust, my friendship, me. If you think you can fix that with this "I wish you the best" then you try it. But trust me, it's not helping. I thought you were my "best friend" and that you'd do anything for me. You wouldn't betray me, you wouldn't hurt me. You'd be there through thick and thin, hate and love, no matter what. Remember that? Because I do. And I think this is stupid, I think that you shouldn't have lied to me when you called and told me you were sorry and that you didn't want me in trouble. But when I called because my parents asked me too, you hung up on me. Then to make it better, you hung up on my father. Real mature of you my friend. That was your desision, not mine. If I would have called you and said to you what you did me, I would have never hung up like you did. I knew I was right for calling and telling your mom what you said to me. I knew I wasn't lying because I would have never picked up the phone. But thank you for lying for me, shows me what type of friend you really are. I'm done with and I'm soon to be done with you. Thanks again. I love you too. But do not worry..... Never Again.

I never learned the meaning of "forgive and forget"

-$h0rT!3... The original

You've hurt me once before but I never did anything about it
You've gone and done it again after " I won't make the same mistake twice "
You left me to believe everything that wasn't true
Now I know why you've been acting the way you have

Don't really feel like typing an update... Not really in the mood too.. Maybe later, or some other day. And right now, all I know is I pressed a bunch of buttons and now this thing looks funny... oh well..




just know, I miss you a lot.





xXx sh0rT!3 xXx

Well, I got grounded because I got caught at Jay's house instead of the movies.. Even though we were on our way to the movies.. Slept over Randi's that night came home, argueed with my dad for a half hour, got out of that punishment, but still no Jay in the picture... Next day went to the mall with Randi, met up with Jay and Sary and her two neices.. and now i'm in trouble agian.. and this time I'm getting blamed and for once I didn't do anything.. Well, I did lie about being with Jay and that is my fault, but everything else is a load of bull.. So once again I'm grounded and at this rate for the next month...


Times like these is when you realize who your real friends are..


To my "Best Friend"...
- -Obviously after all the shit I've done for you and all the times I've covered your ass when you were going somewhere you shouldn't be. I watch your back better then I watch my own and you go and lie.. I know just as well as you do, I didn't hand you shit.. Everything I picked up, I put down. Yeah, I did say "that's cute too" but I never told you to take it.. I never handed you shit and I can't believe you'd say I did... I walked away while you and Sary handed everything off, I had nothing on me.. And you know it. Thanks for saying your my best friend, and that you're always there for me. Because obviously if that was the case, you wouldn't have lied with Sary and said it was all me. I'm done with taking the blame for you. If I wanted to take something I would have, I wouldn't have let you get caught because I'm always there making sure you don't fuck up... I guess what I've done for you means shit... Bonnie, Justin, Anna, Lashele, Jimmy, J.C, Erin... Remember all that.. Yeah, that was me there for you and helping you. Remember when Anna told McGowan that you cut, who left class with you to go and help you talk to your mom? When you're mom was in the hospital having the baby, who skipped class to go and get you a ride and help you find out what was going on? Yeah, I remember that, along with everything else buddy. When you were crying in school.. When you were going out after school and your mom thought you were with me or staying for extra help.. When Bonnie had no where to go and you didn't want her with your friends, she was at my house.. When you wanted to see Bonnie but your mom couldn't know, and you came here while I got in trouble for having her over... When you got drunk and was screaming your head off and crying your eyes out because Lashele and her friends, it was me who was there for you. When you were fucked up and your mom called, who covered your ass... ME!.. And you always tell me how you feel bad for never being there for me and never doing anything for me... This could have been your time to prove me wrong and prove that you were my best friend.. Talk about our lives being like that movie.. I'm guessing it's true. There really is no such thing as a happy ending..Sorry I guess I thought wrong about you..



And that's all you'll be hearing from me for a while.. I unless I get down here and remember to write in this shit.. I'm too lazy to fix my internet shit...

I thought you cared about me the same way I cared about you.

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
Is where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs
She wants to go home, but nobody's home
It's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home
It's where she lies, broken inside
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Well, time for some what of an update from Bonnie's sweet 16... it was okay.. I got annoyed with people but, hey, I'm Andrea and I hate every one?? Well yeah, Dawson ended up winning the poll and he's now the dead guy in the back of car... Damn, i wanted to be that person.. But anyway. I went on the Cyclone with TJ and Dawson and I sat there laughing at them for beating the shit out of eachother.. That was cute.. Walked around the board walk at Coney Island and then got in the limo to go to that resturant that I can't remember the name of.. Yeah anyway, that was interesting. And of course being me as the guy finished cooking I was like "Hey Bonnie should we tell him it's your birthday?" and the guy started to sing to her.. That was funny.. Oh and we can't forget "If your anything else but happy clap your hands" mine and Karynne's new remix.. That was cute too... okay and that was it.. But I still love Karynne and Bonnie... though they ingored me and TJ and that girl who I forgot her name.. ((sorry))...